Sorry for being MIA for quite some time.
Sorry for the emotionalism in the previous post.
Don't worry of me anymore.
I am fine now.
Life has been great recently.
Doing a lot of things.
Met some new friends who are hilarious.
At the same time, my main focus is to study.
I want to find back the previous me who are being ambitious.
I would aim for at least 2nd upper for all subjects.
This is the promise i made to myself.
Lastly, thank you very much for those who are concerning about me.
I believe hope will exist after the storm & darkness in life:)
Have a great day everyone!
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Tuesday, 5 January 2010
untitled
I feel so sad and down to maximum recently due to my studies. I have not had such feelings since few years back.
I done quite badly in the exam & it affected not only my grade but i need more time to finish my course. I am old enough to graduate that time compared to my friends.
Consequently, I was 'lectured' by my dad frequently.
I can't find any friends to talk to.
Either they can't understand my situation or i don't want to burden them.
So, i just pretend that i am okay & i can deal with it.
However, deep in my heart, i know i am NOT okay at all.
I want to hide from seeing everyone.
I want to spent my time alone.
I want to get rid of those phone calls, sms & gathering.
When i am being busy with my little cousins in home, i can control my feeling.
When i am back to KL, my mood is so unstable. feel so depress. so frightening. so insecure. I haven't inform my auntie that i am in KL. Sorry for not telling but i just need some time to calm myself.
I am living like a puppet. I have the body but without the soul & mind.
After i read an article from newspaper today, i am touched by the toughness of the girl--"黃昭芊 (ooi zhao qian)" (pls refer to SinChew Daily for details). Though she is born without hands, her bravery is really motivating. She did not give up albeit she is handicapped. She is better than many people including me.
I realize that what i had encountered is nothing at all compared to her. I will treat every obstacles that i encounter as the tests in life. It is depends on how i am going to face & solve the problems.I shall make changes in order to make the situation from worst to better. Everything is depends on how i am going to judge the thing & situation. Be more positive & optimistic.
Finally, i can shout out loud that I AM BETTER now but i just need some time to adjust myself & it won't take a long time. The next time i blog is the time i fully recover from the sadness.
So, Good Nite everyone! sweet dreams:)
I done quite badly in the exam & it affected not only my grade but i need more time to finish my course. I am old enough to graduate that time compared to my friends.
Consequently, I was 'lectured' by my dad frequently.
I can't find any friends to talk to.
Either they can't understand my situation or i don't want to burden them.
So, i just pretend that i am okay & i can deal with it.
However, deep in my heart, i know i am NOT okay at all.
I want to hide from seeing everyone.
I want to spent my time alone.
I want to get rid of those phone calls, sms & gathering.
When i am being busy with my little cousins in home, i can control my feeling.
When i am back to KL, my mood is so unstable. feel so depress. so frightening. so insecure. I haven't inform my auntie that i am in KL. Sorry for not telling but i just need some time to calm myself.
I am living like a puppet. I have the body but without the soul & mind.
After i read an article from newspaper today, i am touched by the toughness of the girl--"黃昭芊 (ooi zhao qian)" (pls refer to SinChew Daily for details). Though she is born without hands, her bravery is really motivating. She did not give up albeit she is handicapped. She is better than many people including me.
I realize that what i had encountered is nothing at all compared to her. I will treat every obstacles that i encounter as the tests in life. It is depends on how i am going to face & solve the problems.I shall make changes in order to make the situation from worst to better. Everything is depends on how i am going to judge the thing & situation. Be more positive & optimistic.
Finally, i can shout out loud that I AM BETTER now but i just need some time to adjust myself & it won't take a long time. The next time i blog is the time i fully recover from the sadness.
So, Good Nite everyone! sweet dreams:)
Saturday, 2 January 2010
2010
It has been a complicated year for me in 2009.
Whether it is joy or sorrow, it is life & shaped me.
Let me keep the happy moments in my heart & learn from the mistake.
I am looking forward of 2010 and i want to become a better person.
I need to be brave facing all the upcoming challenges in life.
I need to overcome the obstacles of life awaiting me.
I need to reach my aims that i set.
Welcome 2010 & bye to 2009!
New Year, New Start.
New Hope.
Whether it is joy or sorrow, it is life & shaped me.
Let me keep the happy moments in my heart & learn from the mistake.
I am looking forward of 2010 and i want to become a better person.
I need to be brave facing all the upcoming challenges in life.
I need to overcome the obstacles of life awaiting me.
I need to reach my aims that i set.
Welcome 2010 & bye to 2009!
New Year, New Start.
New Hope.
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