Have anyone of you being abandoned by other? I experienced that kind of feeling today. It might be not a very big and important matter but at that very moment, i felt that i was being abandoned. Maybe i am a sensitive person. Being abandoned and forgot by others make me feel so afraid and sad. So, i will always remind myself that i will not ever abandon others. It is very bad to do so. Though the people who abandoned called me later, i still feel that i don't want to talk much with her. I can forgive her but not forget the incident that i have been through. I don't really want to write about the whole story about that incident. It is not that i don't want to share but i think since it is an unpleasant thing, i will just let it be.
My parents, popo, sis and little bro will come either tomorrow or thursday. Hope that i can see them very soon. Dad will take along all my text books and materials from UOL. It will be easier for me next time to do any reference or revision. Besides that, i think of persuading my dad to give me a sub-card from his credit card. The credit card serves me with the correct purpose such as paying school fee. I am not going to use it to shop but i just need it for emergency use. I think i need it and i will use it in a proper way. Hopefully, my dad will promise me about that.
Anyway, stay happy & cheerful ya ^^ have to start doing piles of assignments which will drive me crazy. Jia You!
Tuesday, 30 September 2008
Monday, 29 September 2008
Happy Belated Birthday
Yesterday, 28th of Sept was my birthday. Happy Belated Birthday to myself. I want to share my feelings being 21st on that day but i was in my auntie's house that time. I didn't have fancy and big celebration for my 21st as people will usually celebrate it by having a party and their parents will give them a "key" as freedom. Anyway, i didn't have both because my family doesn't has such traditions and even my sis was not celebrating that time. Frankly, this year is my quietest birthday in my entire life. I don't even receive any birthday presents at all. I don't even celebrate with friends. I don't even have a proper cake. 21st to me is just as a usual day & i think i won't remember my birthday if i didn't receive any sms from friends and family members and my dearest auntie keep telling me. I dislike being grown up. More responsibility & commitment to bear with. Anyway, i hope to graduate soon with flying colours as i want to financial independent.
Thanks a lot to my dearest anutie. My auntie celebrated my birthday with me on saturday and sunday by giving me treats. On saturday, we had decent meal at Nam Xiang which oiginated from Shanghai. It was all Shanghai cuisine. The foods are nice & the chinese tea is very fragrant. Next day, we had dinner at sakae sushi in the curve. Frankly, it is not delicious at all. The foods are so so and i think it is not deserve with that price. I am disappointed with the foods there and i don't think i will go there again. Later, my brother and mika gave me a treat in starbucks for a slice of cake, espresso tiramisu. The cake is really nice. I love it so much.
21st will be my starting point and my starting of 21 years old. 21st....i have lots of dreams that i want to fulfill. I want to chase and being successfully in pursuing my dreams. I am eagerly to live my life to fullest and i will live out of my comfort zone & think out of the box. I want to live with my own identity. I just want to be myself. I am who i am. Let me just be myself and have a life that i wanted. The job is good prospectus with high paid, all my family members will live a happy & healthy life, backpacking, learning more foreign languages, be good to myself, pass my exams with flying colours, etc.....
That day, i read a chinese magazine, citta bella. Sammi Cheng became the front cover and there is an interview with her. What she said is meaningful. When we chase of money and power, we will get tired one day. One day, she decided to let go of her fame by leaving the entertainment industry some time. She want to find out that other than money and power, what will she left with herself. Is it just a body? she think that mental fulfillness ( feel contented with yourself) is more important. I do agree with her in certain extent. When we are in the process of chasing the material fullfillment such as money, branded things, etc, we willl feel our heart is full with emptiness. So, it is better for us to find a balance between material and mental fullfillment. Yeap! it is hard to do so, but , we should try to be not over chasing material fullfillment. Another statement that said by Jet Li. It is meaningful. >>>“我们出世时光着身子，却紧握拳头大声哭泣。哭什么呢？我们什么都要，要快乐、钱、权利、声誉。可是死的时候，我们同样光着身子，但手是张开的，把一切归还世界。在这过程中，人们以为拥有了生命，但其实只是暫时保管，你最后还是得归还。” I am not promoting that money is not important at all but i will conclude that money is important but not more important than your very own happiness except that you feel money is the fundamental of your happiness. I think that the person who use money to built their own happiness are very pity. They just keep on thinking money and they can't live without money in their brain.
Thanks a lot to my dearest anutie. My auntie celebrated my birthday with me on saturday and sunday by giving me treats. On saturday, we had decent meal at Nam Xiang which oiginated from Shanghai. It was all Shanghai cuisine. The foods are nice & the chinese tea is very fragrant. Next day, we had dinner at sakae sushi in the curve. Frankly, it is not delicious at all. The foods are so so and i think it is not deserve with that price. I am disappointed with the foods there and i don't think i will go there again. Later, my brother and mika gave me a treat in starbucks for a slice of cake, espresso tiramisu. The cake is really nice. I love it so much.
21st will be my starting point and my starting of 21 years old. 21st....i have lots of dreams that i want to fulfill. I want to chase and being successfully in pursuing my dreams. I am eagerly to live my life to fullest and i will live out of my comfort zone & think out of the box. I want to live with my own identity. I just want to be myself. I am who i am. Let me just be myself and have a life that i wanted. The job is good prospectus with high paid, all my family members will live a happy & healthy life, backpacking, learning more foreign languages, be good to myself, pass my exams with flying colours, etc.....
That day, i read a chinese magazine, citta bella. Sammi Cheng became the front cover and there is an interview with her. What she said is meaningful. When we chase of money and power, we will get tired one day. One day, she decided to let go of her fame by leaving the entertainment industry some time. She want to find out that other than money and power, what will she left with herself. Is it just a body? she think that mental fulfillness ( feel contented with yourself) is more important. I do agree with her in certain extent. When we are in the process of chasing the material fullfillment such as money, branded things, etc, we willl feel our heart is full with emptiness. So, it is better for us to find a balance between material and mental fullfillment. Yeap! it is hard to do so, but , we should try to be not over chasing material fullfillment. Another statement that said by Jet Li. It is meaningful. >>>“我们出世时光着身子，却紧握拳头大声哭泣。哭什么呢？我们什么都要，要快乐、钱、权利、声誉。可是死的时候，我们同样光着身子，但手是张开的，把一切归还世界。在这过程中，人们以为拥有了生命，但其实只是暫时保管，你最后还是得归还。” I am not promoting that money is not important at all but i will conclude that money is important but not more important than your very own happiness except that you feel money is the fundamental of your happiness. I think that the person who use money to built their own happiness are very pity. They just keep on thinking money and they can't live without money in their brain.
Friday, 26 September 2008
Lousy KTM system
I took KTM today and i nearly get mad. I am not intenting to talk bad mouth or affect the reputation of the train system but it is too lousy and bad that i can't bear with it. Those who are taking and had been taking the train before will surely knew about it. I waited nearly 1 hour at Subang Jaya station. Then, i transfer in KL sentral where i have to wait 3o minutes for another train to back home. It really make me feel so frustrated. The trains were packed with lots of people. I just can stand still and i just stepped on the floor with 1 leg. I am quite sure that i won't fall down as i can't even move and all of us just stick together without any spaces. I am not exagerating but this is truth.
Yesterday, the train was also late. I waited for 40 minutes for the train. I purposely waited earlier for the train. However, i ended up late too. Feel so uneasy as i have been late for my appointment with my Japanese teacher. I knew most of the japanese are very punctual. My teacher had waited me for 15 minutes. Feel really sorry to her.
The government is encouraging us to take public transports instead of using cars. However, the public transports still do not improve much. So, how can the policy attracted people to take public transport? If i have the choice, i surely won't take it due to various reasons---Too pack, not punctual, inconvenient, etc. Hope there are some improvements in the public transports soon.
Yesterday, the train was also late. I waited for 40 minutes for the train. I purposely waited earlier for the train. However, i ended up late too. Feel so uneasy as i have been late for my appointment with my Japanese teacher. I knew most of the japanese are very punctual. My teacher had waited me for 15 minutes. Feel really sorry to her.
The government is encouraging us to take public transports instead of using cars. However, the public transports still do not improve much. So, how can the policy attracted people to take public transport? If i have the choice, i surely won't take it due to various reasons---Too pack, not punctual, inconvenient, etc. Hope there are some improvements in the public transports soon.
nice meet
Today, i met elena and christina at Sunway Pyramid. It is really such a happy gathering with them. When they reached, we went to KFC to have our brunch. We ate sandwich there. Quite a nice meal but i think the bread is not as nice and fragrant compared to subway. By the way, i love having sandwich in subway. It is one of my favourites. We chit-chatted a lot. Later, we went to ice-skating. This is my 1st time to have ice skate. I am really a slow learner and i still can't ski well but at least i did manage to ski. Thanks a lot to Christina and elena for being good teachers of mine. Thanks a lot for holding my hands tight when i nearly fall down. Thanks a lot for being there to teach me patiently. Both of you are really sweet and nice friends ^^ I treasure our friendship very much. Elena will be back to Australia next thursday morning. Think of being there to bade her farewell. i will consider about it. She will not come back next year and i will surely miss her. Though Christina is in KL, i will miss her as well :)
Today is Tze Yan's birthday. Happy Birthday to you and all the best to you.
Today is Tze Yan's birthday. Happy Birthday to you and all the best to you.
Thursday, 25 September 2008
1 week break
I started my holiday now. It will be around 10 days counting from tomorrow. However, it will be worst than school days. A LOT OF ASSIGNMENTS are waiting for me to finish and i don't even start any. I am afraid i can't finish them since there are a lot. I don't like to do assignments and that's one of the reasons i chose this program but it ends out with tonnes of assignments. I am not joking but there are assignments from 5 subjects out of 6 subjects that i have taken. Each subject has a few assignments. It really drives me crazy with all the assignments.
I will meet elena and christina tomorrow in Sunway pyramid. Glad to meet them since i do not meet them for such a long time. Ei Mun will be back in UK tonight. Have a safe journey and all the best to her. Don't forget our backpacking next year. I really look forward about it.
Tired and i still feel not really well. I have to sleep earlier. NitezzZZZ and sweet dreams :)
I will meet elena and christina tomorrow in Sunway pyramid. Glad to meet them since i do not meet them for such a long time. Ei Mun will be back in UK tonight. Have a safe journey and all the best to her. Don't forget our backpacking next year. I really look forward about it.
Tired and i still feel not really well. I have to sleep earlier. NitezzZZZ and sweet dreams :)
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
better
I am feeling better today. Frankly, part of it because i have think of the solution. Another part of it because i ate quite a lot of sweet things today. I ate 2 ice-cream today. I knew it will put on weight but i just can't resist to have something sweet to get rid of my bad mood. I feel so contented after eating the ice-cream. Whenever i feel really bad mood, i will eat something that i like, especially ice-cream. Though it is fattening and i am fat enough, i just need it. I have reduce the amount of eating ice-cream. Those who knew me well will know that i like to eat ice-cream, cakes and chocolate. I think they are the main factors that i am fat. I don't eat much on foods but i like these unhealthy foods or i am craze with them. Class for today also ended a little earlier and i went home earlier. hooray!
I think i will control my feeling or emotion better next time. This time, i think i have improved a lot. At least, i just feel moody for 3 days. It can consider not bad. I used to quite a long time if i face this type of situation.
I am reading Asia journal. It is publishing weekly and i like to read it because this is the only magazine or the only source that improve and maintain my standard of mandarin. I seldom read local newspaper but i will make myself to read it online if i can. The title for this week is the poison milk powder issue in China. My feeling is complicated after i read the articles. Feel angry and sad. Angry because of the businessmen are very selfish and greedy. They added the hazardous chemical things inside the milk powder. Do they ever think of social responsibility? I knew they need to earn money but they shall also think of the safety of the babies who consume the milk. Babies are so naive and the only food they have is milk. They can't protect themselves but they are drinking poisonous milk. The businessmen or the manufacturers are like murderers who kill the babies slowly. The government also need to take stern action against the heartless and cruel manufacturers. They shall have moral conscience. Feel sad for the parents. They bought the milk powder with their hard-earned money but ends up the milk they fed to their babies are harmful. The health of the babies are affected adversely. I think the parents won't think of the milk will cause their babies a lot of problems. There are still quite a huge number of poor people in China where they can't afford to buy foreign brand milk powder for their babies. How would they feed their babies? I really wander. Really pray hard for the babies and their parents. I think it is the saddest thing for the parents if their children have occur any problems. They will be very worried. All the parents in the world love their children very much. They will sacrify anything for the sake of their children.
It is an emotional post but bear with me. I really can't stand on it if i keep quiet.
I think i will control my feeling or emotion better next time. This time, i think i have improved a lot. At least, i just feel moody for 3 days. It can consider not bad. I used to quite a long time if i face this type of situation.
I am reading Asia journal. It is publishing weekly and i like to read it because this is the only magazine or the only source that improve and maintain my standard of mandarin. I seldom read local newspaper but i will make myself to read it online if i can. The title for this week is the poison milk powder issue in China. My feeling is complicated after i read the articles. Feel angry and sad. Angry because of the businessmen are very selfish and greedy. They added the hazardous chemical things inside the milk powder. Do they ever think of social responsibility? I knew they need to earn money but they shall also think of the safety of the babies who consume the milk. Babies are so naive and the only food they have is milk. They can't protect themselves but they are drinking poisonous milk. The businessmen or the manufacturers are like murderers who kill the babies slowly. The government also need to take stern action against the heartless and cruel manufacturers. They shall have moral conscience. Feel sad for the parents. They bought the milk powder with their hard-earned money but ends up the milk they fed to their babies are harmful. The health of the babies are affected adversely. I think the parents won't think of the milk will cause their babies a lot of problems. There are still quite a huge number of poor people in China where they can't afford to buy foreign brand milk powder for their babies. How would they feed their babies? I really wander. Really pray hard for the babies and their parents. I think it is the saddest thing for the parents if their children have occur any problems. They will be very worried. All the parents in the world love their children very much. They will sacrify anything for the sake of their children.
It is an emotional post but bear with me. I really can't stand on it if i keep quiet.
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
confusing
What am i confusing about? Actually, it is not a really big thing but it just keep on in my mind. I can't even concentrate to do my assignments. I have to keep on playing music with my laptop. I need some sounds and the songs which help me to ease my complicated feelings. I thought that scar is completely recover but just find out that it is still bleeding. I thought that i am totally recover but now it really tear me apart. Actually, i keep on telling myself not to think of it but the thing naturally pop up from my mind. I purposely made myself busy doing some revision but it didn't work. I try to control myself but still can't. I know i can't be like these anymore. God, please help me to just fully concentrate on my studies. I don't even want to be such moody because of these matter. Haiz...I shall and must not think of it again. I think i will use an excuse not to go out on that day. If not, i will be moody again because of this. I have work very hard to forget but i can't. Feel like crying. I don't like to cry since i was small but i just have this type of feeling now. Am i insane for behaving weird? I knew at this moment, i am.
down
I knew that i am very moody today. I feel like keep quiet and just stay alone. Please forgive me being moody and down. I just need some spaces for myself to breath and handle something. Some thinking are in my mind and i just need time to settle it. More and more assignments during the 1 week break. I really hope that i can finish it during weekend.
Mr lee told us about the movie about fighter club starred by brat pitt. I am not a big fan of him. I am just attracted by the storyline. Really have to look for it and download it. Sometimes, i am just fed up with the environment around me. I really want to have a look outside my small little world that suffocates me and i want to look out of the box.Maybe i should have my very own identity and i just want to be myself. Tomorrow, there will be a welcoming party from the law society.Frankly, i don't really want to go. I am not good in socializing and i am not in favour or good mood to mingle with people. I will choose to have Mr.Lee's class. Not that i am hardworking but i am lazy to do that. Am i suitable to be lawyer since i am not a sociable person? I don't know.
I dislike my brain stuff with unnecesary things. I want them to get out of my mind. Feel suffer if i keep on thinking about it. Please give me some time. I will be better.
Mr lee told us about the movie about fighter club starred by brat pitt. I am not a big fan of him. I am just attracted by the storyline. Really have to look for it and download it. Sometimes, i am just fed up with the environment around me. I really want to have a look outside my small little world that suffocates me and i want to look out of the box.Maybe i should have my very own identity and i just want to be myself. Tomorrow, there will be a welcoming party from the law society.Frankly, i don't really want to go. I am not good in socializing and i am not in favour or good mood to mingle with people. I will choose to have Mr.Lee's class. Not that i am hardworking but i am lazy to do that. Am i suitable to be lawyer since i am not a sociable person? I don't know.
I dislike my brain stuff with unnecesary things. I want them to get out of my mind. Feel suffer if i keep on thinking about it. Please give me some time. I will be better.
Monday, 22 September 2008
Nothing special
Nothing special to blog now. Lots of assignments and i just feel extremely tired. Feel like not to start my assignments. I just want to sleep. Hope my holiday will come very very soon...
Sunday, 21 September 2008
Gathering
Yesterday, I met my fellow friends in Form 6. There are may, winnie, ai wei, kah wai, wei chen, Joe, Chin Huat and me. May's friend, Fatin was here too. Hing Mun did not come because she had a meeting in her school. Hope that she can join us next time. We met in Nando.
Feel glad to meet them all as i just meet most of them 1st time since F6 except ai wei, may & hing mun. Hmm... the atmosphere was good. lots of jokes, lots of laughter, lots of topics to chat and in conclusion, it was really a nice gathering that i had been. I was so quiet during F6. I think they won't expect me to be such talkative and laugh out very loudly. Anyway, that is me.
Frankly, when i met him, i feel so afraid because i did not know how to face him. Fear that we will be embarrased. Luckily, he did not sit beside me. If not, i will feel scare and uneasy. He sat opposite me, beside may. He did not change much, still as usual. I don't dare to have eye contact with him totally. Feel so surprised that he is no longer studying. I did not know the exact reason but he just told us it was about family matter. Hope that he can settle down all his family matters and can resume to university. Maybe i like him before, so, i care about him. Don't worry, i don't have such feeling towards him anymore. I can treat him as my friend. The gap between us is even bigger. Anyway, all the best to him:) Frankly, i want to sms him when i back home to ask him about his studies matter. I successfully control my feelings to do so. I just don't want to give myself and him hopes. Just be an ordinary friend will do. If there is any chemical reaction happen between us, I think God will lead us.
After about 1 hour, the boy's gang have to leave. Kah wai had an arguement with her girl friend and he need to reconcile with her. I feel that her girl friend is quite controllabe person. Kah wai ask us which type of boy friend we like---a lenient or like to control you. I just think that i like my future boy friend to give me spaces and will not control me too much because i did not like to be controlled by others and i did not like to control others too. In return, i will give spaces to him. I think both of us need spaces to breath and live. We have different friends and family. I also told kah wai that since he himself had chosen to start a relationship, he has accepted what her girl friend is.
We will meet on 11th of October as Kah wai promise to give us a treat as apologise. So, we will meet again and let see what will happen ^^
Feel glad to meet them all as i just meet most of them 1st time since F6 except ai wei, may & hing mun. Hmm... the atmosphere was good. lots of jokes, lots of laughter, lots of topics to chat and in conclusion, it was really a nice gathering that i had been. I was so quiet during F6. I think they won't expect me to be such talkative and laugh out very loudly. Anyway, that is me.
Frankly, when i met him, i feel so afraid because i did not know how to face him. Fear that we will be embarrased. Luckily, he did not sit beside me. If not, i will feel scare and uneasy. He sat opposite me, beside may. He did not change much, still as usual. I don't dare to have eye contact with him totally. Feel so surprised that he is no longer studying. I did not know the exact reason but he just told us it was about family matter. Hope that he can settle down all his family matters and can resume to university. Maybe i like him before, so, i care about him. Don't worry, i don't have such feeling towards him anymore. I can treat him as my friend. The gap between us is even bigger. Anyway, all the best to him:) Frankly, i want to sms him when i back home to ask him about his studies matter. I successfully control my feelings to do so. I just don't want to give myself and him hopes. Just be an ordinary friend will do. If there is any chemical reaction happen between us, I think God will lead us.
After about 1 hour, the boy's gang have to leave. Kah wai had an arguement with her girl friend and he need to reconcile with her. I feel that her girl friend is quite controllabe person. Kah wai ask us which type of boy friend we like---a lenient or like to control you. I just think that i like my future boy friend to give me spaces and will not control me too much because i did not like to be controlled by others and i did not like to control others too. In return, i will give spaces to him. I think both of us need spaces to breath and live. We have different friends and family. I also told kah wai that since he himself had chosen to start a relationship, he has accepted what her girl friend is.
We will meet on 11th of October as Kah wai promise to give us a treat as apologise. So, we will meet again and let see what will happen ^^
Saturday, 20 September 2008
dislike
I dislike her for showing temper to me. I think everyone has own limit. I try to be nice to you but you gave me your "black face". It's enough. Why should i bear with you? I just feel not good mood because of you. Let me throw away this negative feelings. I don't want to let you affect my mood. Just ignore this as i am just bursting up all my uneasy feelings. Please forgive me to do that. Please let me be happy & cheerful ^^ Later, i will meet May, winnie, Kah wai (for sure), Hing mun and ai wei (not sure yet).... Glad to meet them as i do not meet them for such a long time.
Friday, 19 September 2008
Dear God
Dear God,
Thanks a lot for giving me very supportive and loving family. Thanks for their understanding. Thanks for their forgiveness as i am always childish or selfish sometimes. Thanks a lot for them to love me so much more than i do. Thanks for supporting me financially as i can do what i really like and eat great foods. I am really lucky to have such a loving, nice and kind family in the world ^^
Thanks for giving me friends that are amiable and friendly to me. Thanks for friends that accompany me through thick and thin. Hor Yuet, Jia min, Mei chi, May, Hing Mun, Ai wei, ellie, dee ming, shin yee and lots and lots of friends. Thanks for shaping part of my life. If without all of you, i will not be the one i am.
Thanks for letting me alive. Thanks for giving me healthy life.Thanks for letting me to breath,eat and sleep. Thanks a lot for letting me to pursue my dreams. Thanks a lot for letting me to live life that i really want. Thanks a lot for the wonderful and protective life that i have.
Feel so grateful to what i have. Feel so contented. Though i knew sometimes life is full of difficulty, sorrows, hatred, disappointment, i still appreciate to be the only mine in this world. I am unique in some sense.
Thanks a lot for giving me very supportive and loving family. Thanks for their understanding. Thanks for their forgiveness as i am always childish or selfish sometimes. Thanks a lot for them to love me so much more than i do. Thanks for supporting me financially as i can do what i really like and eat great foods. I am really lucky to have such a loving, nice and kind family in the world ^^
Thanks for giving me friends that are amiable and friendly to me. Thanks for friends that accompany me through thick and thin. Hor Yuet, Jia min, Mei chi, May, Hing Mun, Ai wei, ellie, dee ming, shin yee and lots and lots of friends. Thanks for shaping part of my life. If without all of you, i will not be the one i am.
Thanks for letting me alive. Thanks for giving me healthy life.Thanks for letting me to breath,eat and sleep. Thanks a lot for letting me to pursue my dreams. Thanks a lot for letting me to live life that i really want. Thanks a lot for the wonderful and protective life that i have.
Feel so grateful to what i have. Feel so contented. Though i knew sometimes life is full of difficulty, sorrows, hatred, disappointment, i still appreciate to be the only mine in this world. I am unique in some sense.
Wednesday, 17 September 2008
Sick
Feeling sick this few days. The exact time is since monday. Hope that i can recover soon. feel so suffer when i am sick. Appreciate and envy the time when i am healthy. Get well soon ya.
Sunday, 14 September 2008
Bad luck =(
Sis's car was banged by others. Not her fault but is the motorist and another car driver's fault. Don't feel like further explaining here. Since sis promised to become ying jie's camera girl, we can't have a decent meal to celebrate popo's birthday. We just bought a cake for her and sang her birthday song. Popo, hope you stay healthy and happy always. I love you!
Later, before i back to KL, sis gave me a red pocket containing money as my birthday gift in advance. I still don't know the amount of money but feel really touched by my sis's gesture. She is busy and yet her car was banged by others but she still remember my birthday whereas i thought my birthday is still far away. In 2 weeks time, i am gonna be 21 years old. have nothing much feeling about it. I think the most difficult part was when i turn 20 from 19. i feel so down that time. Now, i think i can easily accept it. won't make it big but i hope to make it simple or to myself only. I am not in favour let others know about it. Finally, i can enter casino in genting. just wanna have a visit there.
I hate assignment. I am lazy bug and i am afraid of assignment. Made me feel so sick to have assignment. Why my course has assignment? it shall not as i study external law. that's why i chose this program instead of others. Hope the 1 week holiday will come very very very soon. I hope that tomorrow will be a holiday. I act like a baby=p
Later, before i back to KL, sis gave me a red pocket containing money as my birthday gift in advance. I still don't know the amount of money but feel really touched by my sis's gesture. She is busy and yet her car was banged by others but she still remember my birthday whereas i thought my birthday is still far away. In 2 weeks time, i am gonna be 21 years old. have nothing much feeling about it. I think the most difficult part was when i turn 20 from 19. i feel so down that time. Now, i think i can easily accept it. won't make it big but i hope to make it simple or to myself only. I am not in favour let others know about it. Finally, i can enter casino in genting. just wanna have a visit there.
I hate assignment. I am lazy bug and i am afraid of assignment. Made me feel so sick to have assignment. Why my course has assignment? it shall not as i study external law. that's why i chose this program instead of others. Hope the 1 week holiday will come very very very soon. I hope that tomorrow will be a holiday. I act like a baby=p
Thursday, 11 September 2008
my once close friend
My once close friend, elena is coming back from Australia. I just knew it when i read wei haun's blog. Christina did told me before that but she did not tell me the exact time. They are going to have a farewell with wei haun who is going to UK to study. Shall i appear myself and ask whether i can join. I just really hope to meet elena and if i miss it, i think it will take very long time for us to meet next time.I did not meet her for 2 to 3 years. However, i also have to attend ying jie wedding dinner..conflicts happen..how should i do? i miss her heaps. It will be great if we can face to face talk to each other. surely will be a very nice and precious moment=)
Will be back to ipoh tomorrow. home sweet home, here i come ^^
Will be back to ipoh tomorrow. home sweet home, here i come ^^
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
not in a right mood
Today, i really don't have a right mood to blog. Many things had happened & my brain is stuck with it. Hopefully, i can solve it soon.
Tuesday, 9 September 2008
things to do
Will be going to japan in December during my semester break. A lot of things have to prepare before going there.
1. take passport photo
2. apply for my passport
3. apply for visa from Embassy of Japan (hopefully i can get 1 month visa or 3 weeks visa)
4. doing research & plan for the route
5. buy the JR pass
6. borrow the sweaters from my aunty
Anyway, before i go to Japan, i have to study really hard. I want to score well in my mock exam. I don't want to be failed. Going to Japan will motivate me a lot. After the mock exam from 1st of Dec to 5th of Dec, i will be freed. Japan, here I come:)
1. take passport photo
2. apply for my passport
3. apply for visa from Embassy of Japan (hopefully i can get 1 month visa or 3 weeks visa)
4. doing research & plan for the route
5. buy the JR pass
6. borrow the sweaters from my aunty
Anyway, before i go to Japan, i have to study really hard. I want to score well in my mock exam. I don't want to be failed. Going to Japan will motivate me a lot. After the mock exam from 1st of Dec to 5th of Dec, i will be freed. Japan, here I come:)
Monday, 8 September 2008
Finally
Finally i received the e-mail from University of London. the materials are on the way to my home in Ipoh. Hopefully, i can receive it when i back to ipoh this friday. Feel relief that everything of my studies in this semester has settled. I can concentrate on my studies now. Jia You!
Sunday, 7 September 2008
Hope...
Hope everything is alright.
Hope that i will study smart & hard
Hope that my family members & friends are happy & healthy
Hope that the world is peaceful & harmony ( No wars please!)
Hope M'sia will be a nice place to stay at (most of my friends think that they better migrate after their studies overseas)
Hope Malaysia will be free from racial & religion problems. ( Recently, the statements made by some people are irritating. The history books which i hate to study during my secondary school still exist though the contents of the books are like living in their own world)
Hope there will not be those irresponsible people who want to become their"racist hero" ( there are still lots of people giving comments that really disheartening but the government still want to protect them & their most common excuses by blaming the media)
Hope that Malaysia will become progress.( i think with the mindset of those racist, m'sia might be a progress country in few generations or might forever and ever become a developing country or worse still become a third world country. i don't really hope it will happen)
Hope that my ears and eyes will get well soon. ( with those recent political news recently, i don't think my ears & eyes will be getting fine)
Hope that i can live or stay in a country that all races can mix well. Sensitive issues will be no longer sensitive. It might not happen in every country in the world at least i stay outside the planet)....
Everything is a dream. However, with dream, we might achieve success.
Hope that i will study smart & hard
Hope that my family members & friends are happy & healthy
Hope that the world is peaceful & harmony ( No wars please!)
Hope M'sia will be a nice place to stay at (most of my friends think that they better migrate after their studies overseas)
Hope Malaysia will be free from racial & religion problems. ( Recently, the statements made by some people are irritating. The history books which i hate to study during my secondary school still exist though the contents of the books are like living in their own world)
Hope there will not be those irresponsible people who want to become their"racist hero" ( there are still lots of people giving comments that really disheartening but the government still want to protect them & their most common excuses by blaming the media)
Hope that Malaysia will become progress.( i think with the mindset of those racist, m'sia might be a progress country in few generations or might forever and ever become a developing country or worse still become a third world country. i don't really hope it will happen)
Hope that my ears and eyes will get well soon. ( with those recent political news recently, i don't think my ears & eyes will be getting fine)
Hope that i can live or stay in a country that all races can mix well. Sensitive issues will be no longer sensitive. It might not happen in every country in the world at least i stay outside the planet)....
Everything is a dream. However, with dream, we might achieve success.
Friday, 5 September 2008
shall i go?
Shall i go tomorrow? I can't made a firm decision now. Feel like going but don't have anyone to accompany me. shall i go? shall i go? shall i go? hopefully shu leen will contact with me tonight & she will go. Can someone please give me some clues?
Thursday, 4 September 2008
1st class
Had my 1st class for japanese class. I feel so energetic & surprisingly did not fell asleep as i am very tired today. Woke up at 6am & i just slept for 6 hours which are not enough to me. Maybe i really love to learn new language. That's why i paid full attention during class. Actually, i hope to complete my korean class before i start to do my japanese class. Compared to kawaoka sensei, i prefer eun sil sun-seng-nim. The later is more caring, friendly & helpful. I really miss her lessons. Hope the intermediate will be able to start. I look forward to attend classes conduct by sun-seng-nim.
Before i went to the class today, i had my dinner at mc donald in kl sentral with seow peing. We chatted a lot & it is so nice & casual to talk with her. Feel much more comfortable with her. After finished the m'sian studies, we took bus from kdu to kl sentral. Unluckily, it was raining. We waited the bus for few minutes & there was no seats there. i had to stand. Due to the attire that i wore today which was in formal, it is really inconvenient. When the bus braked for few times, i nearly fall on the floor though i tried my best to hold on tightly. An aunty saw me in this clumpsy situation & she gave her seat to me. make me feel so shameful & embarrased because i need an aunty who is older than me to gave me seat. I just sat for few minutes & i had to transfer to another bus station to wait for bus. Anyway, i feel really grateful & i appreciated the aunty's kindness. A big thank you to her!
I have decided to go to UM for the law forum this coming saturday with xuan. hope to gain much more knowledge & expose myself to the legal world. not really keen on becoming a lawyer but i will consider conveyancing field that seldom go to court. I admit that i am really lousy in arguing & i am extremely nervous when i did public speaking. I tried to control myself & kept on persuading myself but ends up impossible. I am really not confident to myself. shall encourage myself more & have more self-esteem.
About one matter that i really glad to notice that i really can let go of something that i stubborn at. i will keep it to myself. Goodbye & let bygones be bygones. I can be much happier without the existence of you. thanks a lot to you!
Before i went to the class today, i had my dinner at mc donald in kl sentral with seow peing. We chatted a lot & it is so nice & casual to talk with her. Feel much more comfortable with her. After finished the m'sian studies, we took bus from kdu to kl sentral. Unluckily, it was raining. We waited the bus for few minutes & there was no seats there. i had to stand. Due to the attire that i wore today which was in formal, it is really inconvenient. When the bus braked for few times, i nearly fall on the floor though i tried my best to hold on tightly. An aunty saw me in this clumpsy situation & she gave her seat to me. make me feel so shameful & embarrased because i need an aunty who is older than me to gave me seat. I just sat for few minutes & i had to transfer to another bus station to wait for bus. Anyway, i feel really grateful & i appreciated the aunty's kindness. A big thank you to her!
I have decided to go to UM for the law forum this coming saturday with xuan. hope to gain much more knowledge & expose myself to the legal world. not really keen on becoming a lawyer but i will consider conveyancing field that seldom go to court. I admit that i am really lousy in arguing & i am extremely nervous when i did public speaking. I tried to control myself & kept on persuading myself but ends up impossible. I am really not confident to myself. shall encourage myself more & have more self-esteem.
About one matter that i really glad to notice that i really can let go of something that i stubborn at. i will keep it to myself. Goodbye & let bygones be bygones. I can be much happier without the existence of you. thanks a lot to you!
Wednesday, 3 September 2008
should i?
Should i tell others that the existence of my blog? When i created the blog, i intended to jot down my feelings & thoughts. It will make me feel much more comfortable to express what i think without afraid of hurting others. I don't like to upset others as i knew maintaining the relationship with others are difficult whereas it needs few seconds to spoil a relationship. anyway, should i tell others?
I feel so upset today. My classmate from Zimbabwe, Tino told chooi qing that i lied to him. I swear i didn't lie to him that i am not an UOL student. I think it is no point to lie to him as we will meet everyday. I also feel that so strange. We met for the previous classes & why he can't see me sitting in the class? It is really ridiculous. At first, i thought it might be misunderstanding because i might not listen to him carefully as his assent is quite weird. I tried to explain but he insisted that i lied to him. It makes me frustrated & at the same time a little bit angry. I try not to offend anyone in my class but at the end & in the beginning of the 1st semester, i had someone who think me as a liar. I was once told by Huey Koon that i shall not be so sad with what the people think of me. We can't please everyone in fact. She always ask me to just stay on & be myself. It's so true now. I really care what people think of me & i feel sad if they think i am bad. I will try to be friend with him in class when i see him next time & it depends on him whether to forgive me. Actually, i really did nothing wrong. So, it is me getting his forgiveness but i just don't want to make this small matter big. I shall concentrate on my studies, maintaining a good relationship with family & friends & stay happy.
I admit that i am really not a sociable person. I don't know ways to mix with other people in my class. Sometimes, i think i will absolutely be a failure in socializing with others. They think i am too serious. However, i think i am not. I am just not close with them. That's why i seldom talk. Shin yee will surely know that. I still remember shin yee told me that she can't believe that my 1st impression to her as a quiet girl but i turn out to be extremely talkative when i was with her. I miss her & the time we spent together as housemate +coursemate+ classmate. Frankly, if malacca has offer UOL program, surely i will stay there. I like the people there. Very friendly & kind. I can put my total trust to them. I am always cheated by my close friends, Hor Yuet, Mei Chi & Jia Min. Hor Yuet always laugh me because she always make fun of me by lying to me. Though it is ilogical sometimes, i still believe totally what she told me.
아 자 아 자 fighting!
I feel so upset today. My classmate from Zimbabwe, Tino told chooi qing that i lied to him. I swear i didn't lie to him that i am not an UOL student. I think it is no point to lie to him as we will meet everyday. I also feel that so strange. We met for the previous classes & why he can't see me sitting in the class? It is really ridiculous. At first, i thought it might be misunderstanding because i might not listen to him carefully as his assent is quite weird. I tried to explain but he insisted that i lied to him. It makes me frustrated & at the same time a little bit angry. I try not to offend anyone in my class but at the end & in the beginning of the 1st semester, i had someone who think me as a liar. I was once told by Huey Koon that i shall not be so sad with what the people think of me. We can't please everyone in fact. She always ask me to just stay on & be myself. It's so true now. I really care what people think of me & i feel sad if they think i am bad. I will try to be friend with him in class when i see him next time & it depends on him whether to forgive me. Actually, i really did nothing wrong. So, it is me getting his forgiveness but i just don't want to make this small matter big. I shall concentrate on my studies, maintaining a good relationship with family & friends & stay happy.
I admit that i am really not a sociable person. I don't know ways to mix with other people in my class. Sometimes, i think i will absolutely be a failure in socializing with others. They think i am too serious. However, i think i am not. I am just not close with them. That's why i seldom talk. Shin yee will surely know that. I still remember shin yee told me that she can't believe that my 1st impression to her as a quiet girl but i turn out to be extremely talkative when i was with her. I miss her & the time we spent together as housemate +coursemate+ classmate. Frankly, if malacca has offer UOL program, surely i will stay there. I like the people there. Very friendly & kind. I can put my total trust to them. I am always cheated by my close friends, Hor Yuet, Mei Chi & Jia Min. Hor Yuet always laugh me because she always make fun of me by lying to me. Though it is ilogical sometimes, i still believe totally what she told me.
아 자 아 자 fighting!
Tuesday, 2 September 2008
A day for others
today, i skipped class to accompany xuan & chooi qing to mid valley. We took taxi there & costs RM13.60 from KDU. When we reached there, i just accompany them to shop for their blazer, skirt & white shirt. After that, we went to have our so called lunch & dinner in feng lai which is a taiwanese restaurant. Before that, i like to eat the foods there. However, the food today is so so. The sweet & sour pork ribs according to menu is not what i expected. pork ribs mean meat but these special pork ribs are full with fats that i can't even bite or taste the meat. Luckily, the drink which i ordered---watermelon juice with milk is nice. If not, i will feel very disappointed to this restaurant. I think it will take me long time to visit there again.
Frankly, i would like to continue to attend the session 2 of the talk by the lecturer from oxford brookes as it is rare to have a foreign lecturer coming here giving us a brief talk about constitutional & human rights act. I think that his assent is consider ok & not heavy that i can understand what he is talking compared the last 'ang moh' that came to MMU. I felt asleep last time for not understanding the talking. I also want to attend malaysian studies as i find out that Mr. Warren's class is interesting because of his deep knowledge in history, which are just not merely about Malaysia's history but world history. It make me gain so much from his lesson. Sometimes, i feel so sorry to myself & in the other hand, i feel angry of myself. It is because i always dare not to do what i think it is right & what i like. I just be a 'yes' man & follow what others said. i don't really like what i am. i feel so sick of myself. can i be brave to voice out if i really don't like? BE BRAVE & JIA YOU!
I really have to work hard in my studies. As what Mr lee said, this program is tough & need to put a lot of efforts. From this month onwards, i promise myself that i will cut down my shopping time & money in eating good food. I will really do my best to save money, study hard, back to hometown & accompany niu mai, zheng yao & kai xin.Besides, i want to control my diet. Do remember, no over-eat. Anyway, be grateful to what i have & i shall appreciate them.
Frankly, i would like to continue to attend the session 2 of the talk by the lecturer from oxford brookes as it is rare to have a foreign lecturer coming here giving us a brief talk about constitutional & human rights act. I think that his assent is consider ok & not heavy that i can understand what he is talking compared the last 'ang moh' that came to MMU. I felt asleep last time for not understanding the talking. I also want to attend malaysian studies as i find out that Mr. Warren's class is interesting because of his deep knowledge in history, which are just not merely about Malaysia's history but world history. It make me gain so much from his lesson. Sometimes, i feel so sorry to myself & in the other hand, i feel angry of myself. It is because i always dare not to do what i think it is right & what i like. I just be a 'yes' man & follow what others said. i don't really like what i am. i feel so sick of myself. can i be brave to voice out if i really don't like? BE BRAVE & JIA YOU!
I really have to work hard in my studies. As what Mr lee said, this program is tough & need to put a lot of efforts. From this month onwards, i promise myself that i will cut down my shopping time & money in eating good food. I will really do my best to save money, study hard, back to hometown & accompany niu mai, zheng yao & kai xin.Besides, i want to control my diet. Do remember, no over-eat. Anyway, be grateful to what i have & i shall appreciate them.
Monday, 1 September 2008
printing thingy
today, it shall be a holiday. However, i have lots more things to do. Feel so frustrated just now. I gotta print the notes for my contract law & common law. The common law that Mr. Bala gave really make me angry. Too much pictures that consume a lot of my inks of the printer. As the note is in adobe reader, i don't know way to make it to microsoft word. I have to take it to photostat the notes later for chooi qing & xuan.
I am not even touch my Assignment which is going to hand in tomorrow. Oh my gosh, what the hell i am doing. Still blog but not going to do assignment. STOP NOW. take bath & do assignment NOW!!!!
I am not even touch my Assignment which is going to hand in tomorrow. Oh my gosh, what the hell i am doing. Still blog but not going to do assignment. STOP NOW. take bath & do assignment NOW!!!!
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