personal message

I did not feel release or even happy after finished the exam. Perhaps i feel release a little bit. That's for sure. I feel extremely tired as i did not sleep well for the past whole month. I kept on dreaming all types of weird dreams which are unbelievable and my classmates even laughed at my so-called dream! The 9 days of exam really make me stress & suffer to the max. Luckily, there are some people who accompanied me to go through this hard times----dad,mum, auntie Jessie, family members & friends. Without them, i am surely give up half-way or in the beginning. I thought of running away before the exam started. Just go any place will do. Back to reality, i can't run away as this is a process of life & we have to face it anyway. Run away will not help to solve problems as the problems still exist without any progression. Furthermore, i cried a lot due to anxiety which is not the usual or normal of me. If one know me well enough, i won't cry easily & doesn't like to cry. After the first paper, i thought of not going for the remaining paper but i can't accept myself if i behave like this. I need to accept the good & bad no matter what as this is life. Million thanks to them for there to encourage me, check on me, give support to me, believe on me,etc. Besides, i did something which are unexpected by myself. Actually, i can study for 10 hours per day which broke my records. As a lazy student, i seldom study & the most i can study perhaps not more than 2 hours since i was small. Though i might not perform well or personally feel that i will fail the exam which means i might take another year to study, I think i give my best for what i did. One thing i blame myself is i should study earlier or consistently. Don't worry as i will think of the outcome by myself. I shall solve the problem which i created. Anyway, thank you very much for being there with me when i am in hard times.