I feel so sad and down to maximum recently due to my studies. I have not had such feelings since few years back.
I done quite badly in the exam & it affected not only my grade but i need more time to finish my course. I am old enough to graduate that time compared to my friends.
Consequently, I was 'lectured' by my dad frequently.
I can't find any friends to talk to.
Either they can't understand my situation or i don't want to burden them.
So, i just pretend that i am okay & i can deal with it.
However, deep in my heart, i know i am NOT okay at all.
I want to hide from seeing everyone.
I want to spent my time alone.
I want to get rid of those phone calls, sms & gathering.
When i am being busy with my little cousins in home, i can control my feeling.
When i am back to KL, my mood is so unstable. feel so depress. so frightening. so insecure. I haven't inform my auntie that i am in KL. Sorry for not telling but i just need some time to calm myself.
I am living like a puppet. I have the body but without the soul & mind.
After i read an article from newspaper today, i am touched by the toughness of the girl--"黃昭芊 (ooi zhao qian)" (pls refer to SinChew Daily for details). Though she is born without hands, her bravery is really motivating. She did not give up albeit she is handicapped. She is better than many people including me.
I realize that what i had encountered is nothing at all compared to her. I will treat every obstacles that i encounter as the tests in life. It is depends on how i am going to face & solve the problems.I shall make changes in order to make the situation from worst to better. Everything is depends on how i am going to judge the thing & situation. Be more positive & optimistic.
Finally, i can shout out loud that I AM BETTER now but i just need some time to adjust myself & it won't take a long time. The next time i blog is the time i fully recover from the sadness.
So, Good Nite everyone! sweet dreams:)
7 comments:
Talk to your frieds, that is what friends for. I do think i am a good listener ;), it's comfortable when chatting with you, feel so great that i having a friend like you, a true lovely good friend. :) I really missed those time we spending together, no matter it's bitter ('fishing', struggling in class'),or sweet (chitchatting,eating,fooling around).I believe you will choose the right path to go, and get through this hard time soon. You have friendssss that always supporting you!! wish you lots of lucks!!
take your time. spend sometime now rather spending more time in the future. hope u recover from sadness soon!!
hey you know you can talk to me if u want to...you have my msn rite??
cheer up k??/
take care... sometimes stress might mess a person up... u need to learn abt how to deal wif all those sad, stress and unhappy things... think positively... there's always a way to settle ur problem as god is always there to open a window for u ^^.. cheers~
uhic: i guess you are chui qing. or you are somebody? Thanks a lot!
Wei Qi: Thank you very much & i am really okay now:) hope to see you real soon!
Michelle: don't worry of me. I am OKAY already. I still have ur msn anyway.
Yi Wen: Thanks a lot for your encouragement! I feel OK now. life still go on anyway. hope to meet you gals in the coming CNY:)
Dont feel so miserable, Pei Lin. Talk to somebody, become wiser, and move on to be a better person.
fishtail: thanks for your encouragement:) i am fine now. we should keep on moving to be better:) life is still goes on!
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