Finally

Finally i received the e-mail from University of London. the materials are on the way to my home in Ipoh. Hopefully, i can receive it when i back to ipoh this friday. Feel relief that everything of my studies in this semester has settled. I can concentrate on my studies now. Jia You!

Hope...

Hope everything is alright.

Hope that i will study smart & hard

Hope that my family members & friends are happy & healthy

Hope that the world is peaceful & harmony ( No wars please!)

Hope M'sia will be a nice place to stay at (most of my friends think that they better migrate after their studies overseas)

Hope Malaysia will be free from racial & religion problems. ( Recently, the statements made by some people are irritating. The history books which i hate to study during my secondary school still exist though the contents of the books are like living in their own world)

Hope there will not be those irresponsible people who want to become their"racist hero" ( there are still lots of people giving comments that really disheartening but the government still want to protect them & their most common excuses by blaming the media)

Hope that Malaysia will become progress.( i think with the mindset of those racist, m'sia might be a progress country in few generations or might forever and ever become a developing country or worse still become a third world country. i don't really hope it will happen)

Hope that my ears and eyes will get well soon. ( with those recent political news recently, i don't think my ears & eyes will be getting fine)

Hope that i can live or stay in a country that all races can mix well. Sensitive issues will be no longer sensitive. It might not happen in every country in the world at least i stay outside the planet)....

Everything is a dream. However, with dream, we might achieve success.

shall i go?

Shall i go tomorrow? I can't made a firm decision now. Feel like going but don't have anyone to accompany me. shall i go? shall i go? shall i go? hopefully shu leen will contact with me tonight & she will go. Can someone please give me some clues?

1st class

Had my 1st class for japanese class. I feel so energetic & surprisingly did not fell asleep as i am very tired today. Woke up at 6am & i just slept for 6 hours which are not enough to me. Maybe i really love to learn new language. That's why i paid full attention during class. Actually, i hope to complete my korean class before i start to do my japanese class. Compared to kawaoka sensei, i prefer eun sil sun-seng-nim. The later is more caring, friendly & helpful. I really miss her lessons. Hope the intermediate will be able to start. I look forward to attend classes conduct by sun-seng-nim.

Before i went to the class today, i had my dinner at mc donald in kl sentral with seow peing. We chatted a lot & it is so nice & casual to talk with her. Feel much more comfortable with her. After finished the m'sian studies, we took bus from kdu to kl sentral. Unluckily, it was raining. We waited the bus for few minutes & there was no seats there. i had to stand. Due to the attire that i wore today which was in formal, it is really inconvenient. When the bus braked for few times, i nearly fall on the floor though i tried my best to hold on tightly. An aunty saw me in this clumpsy situation & she gave her seat to me. make me feel so shameful & embarrased because i need an aunty who is older than me to gave me seat. I just sat for few minutes & i had to transfer to another bus station to wait for bus. Anyway, i feel really grateful & i appreciated the aunty's kindness. A big thank you to her!

I have decided to go to UM for the law forum this coming saturday with xuan. hope to gain much more knowledge & expose myself to the legal world. not really keen on becoming a lawyer but i will consider conveyancing field that seldom go to court. I admit that i am really lousy in arguing & i am extremely nervous when i did public speaking. I tried to control myself & kept on persuading myself but ends up impossible. I am really not confident to myself. shall encourage myself more & have more self-esteem.

About one matter that i really glad to notice that i really can let go of something that i stubborn at. i will keep it to myself. Goodbye & let bygones be bygones. I can be much happier without the existence of you. thanks a lot to you!

should i?

Should i tell others that the existence of my blog? When i created the blog, i intended to jot down my feelings & thoughts. It will make me feel much more comfortable to express what i think without afraid of hurting others. I don't like to upset others as i knew maintaining the relationship with others are difficult whereas it needs few seconds to spoil a relationship. anyway, should i tell others?

I feel so upset today. My classmate from Zimbabwe, Tino told chooi qing that i lied to him. I swear i didn't lie to him that i am not an UOL student. I think it is no point to lie to him as we will meet everyday. I also feel that so strange. We met for the previous classes & why he can't see me sitting in the class? It is really ridiculous. At first, i thought it might be misunderstanding because i might not listen to him carefully as his assent is quite weird. I tried to explain but he insisted that i lied to him. It makes me frustrated & at the same time a little bit angry. I try not to offend anyone in my class but at the end & in the beginning of the 1st semester, i had someone who think me as a liar. I was once told by Huey Koon that i shall not be so sad with what the people think of me. We can't please everyone in fact. She always ask me to just stay on & be myself. It's so true now. I really care what people think of me & i feel sad if they think i am bad. I will try to be friend with him in class when i see him next time & it depends on him whether to forgive me. Actually, i really did nothing wrong. So, it is me getting his forgiveness but i just don't want to make this small matter big. I shall concentrate on my studies, maintaining a good relationship with family & friends & stay happy.

I admit that i am really not a sociable person. I don't know ways to mix with other people in my class. Sometimes, i think i will absolutely be a failure in socializing with others. They think i am too serious. However, i think i am not. I am just not close with them. That's why i seldom talk. Shin yee will surely know that. I still remember shin yee told me that she can't believe that my 1st impression to her as a quiet girl but i turn out to be extremely talkative when i was with her. I miss her & the time we spent together as housemate +coursemate+ classmate. Frankly, if malacca has offer UOL program, surely i will stay there. I like the people there. Very friendly & kind. I can put my total trust to them. I am always cheated by my close friends, Hor Yuet, Mei Chi & Jia Min. Hor Yuet always laugh me because she always make fun of me by lying to me. Though it is ilogical sometimes, i still believe totally what she told me.

아 자 아 자 fighting!

A day for others

today, i skipped class to accompany xuan & chooi qing to mid valley. We took taxi there & costs RM13.60 from KDU. When we reached there, i just accompany them to shop for their blazer, skirt & white shirt. After that, we went to have our so called lunch & dinner in feng lai which is a taiwanese restaurant. Before that, i like to eat the foods there. However, the food today is so so. The sweet & sour pork ribs according to menu is not what i expected. pork ribs mean meat but these special pork ribs are full with fats that i can't even bite or taste the meat. Luckily, the drink which i ordered---watermelon juice with milk is nice. If not, i will feel very disappointed to this restaurant. I think it will take me long time to visit there again.

Frankly, i would like to continue to attend the session 2 of the talk by the lecturer from oxford brookes as it is rare to have a foreign lecturer coming here giving us a brief talk about constitutional & human rights act. I think that his assent is consider ok & not heavy that i can understand what he is talking compared the last 'ang moh' that came to MMU. I felt asleep last time for not understanding the talking. I also want to attend malaysian studies as i find out that Mr. Warren's class is interesting because of his deep knowledge in history, which are just not merely about Malaysia's history but world history. It make me gain so much from his lesson. Sometimes, i feel so sorry to myself & in the other hand, i feel angry of myself. It is because i always dare not to do what i think it is right & what i like. I just be a 'yes' man & follow what others said. i don't really like what i am. i feel so sick of myself. can i be brave to voice out if i really don't like? BE BRAVE & JIA YOU!

I really have to work hard in my studies. As what Mr lee said, this program is tough & need to put a lot of efforts. From this month onwards, i promise myself that i will cut down my shopping time & money in eating good food. I will really do my best to save money, study hard, back to hometown & accompany niu mai, zheng yao & kai xin.Besides, i want to control my diet. Do remember, no over-eat. Anyway, be grateful to what i have & i shall appreciate them.

printing thingy

today, it shall be a holiday. However, i have lots more things to do. Feel so frustrated just now. I gotta print the notes for my contract law & common law. The common law that Mr. Bala gave really make me angry. Too much pictures that consume a lot of my inks of the printer. As the note is in adobe reader, i don't know way to make it to microsoft word. I have to take it to photostat the notes later for chooi qing & xuan.

I am not even touch my Assignment which is going to hand in tomorrow. Oh my gosh, what the hell i am doing. Still blog but not going to do assignment. STOP NOW. take bath & do assignment NOW!!!!